what am i doing here

sometimes what you wish for can get really overwhelming. the other day i was hurrying along to finish my job when i passed by a big window on the higher floor of our building and saw the outside world on a bright sunny day and i thought i could be out there enjoying myself, what am i doing here?
for a moment i thought i was such a masochist for chosing to do what i do while i could be somewhere else doing something easier and being compensated much more. i did not have the answer and still dont but i keep doing what im doing, maybe because its what im used to, maybe because its just to hard to take the road "more taken" in my case, but whatever the reason is, there are only a few more days left 112 to be exact and then ill be free........
but somethings you wish for sometimes seem like they will only be a wish forever

what a beauty......sigh......